So my bestfriend and i were really close and i liked him at lot at the beginning of last year but he was kinda girl crazy and looked through me. But after i got another guy i started dating we became super close second semester. Especially with summer, wed talk every night for hours, usually conversations started by him, and he'd always tell me about how he doesnt want serious relationships in hs etc... But hes matured a lot from the beginning of the year.
My other bestfriend is convinced he would go for me but since im super hard to get and he thinks i only think of him as a friend he never went for me. For a while i had no feelings for him then i found out i was moving..... I just moved last week from north carolina to florida. When i thought about leaving him i realized how much i truly did love him, but i was confused in which way. All this time i thought it was a friend-way, but i started to realize i think i loved in in a romantic way too....
He hung out with me the whole day before I left and when i hugged him goodbye i wanted to kiss him and confess how much i cared about him, but i figured it was useless because i was moving. And i think he felt the same way bc he just stood in my driveway as i walked away and it sad goodbye letting go quoteshurt so bad.
I've been gone a week now, but we talk everyday usualy over text and he tells me how much he misses me and how much of a shock it was when i left and how much hes gunna miss me next year. He says he wants to come visit me all the time (i wish.....) and we talk sometimes kinda sentimentally about how great out friendship is and how great we get along. The night i left i kinda hinted that i wondered "what might have happened next year" idk if he got the hint..... When i left he set his fb default to me and him and his status to how much hes gunna miss me.
I wish i could tell him how I felt, but it seems a waste now. Because odds are our paths won't cross in the future. My parents constantly tell me when i hang out with him that he "probably realizes he could of had you and hes kicking himself" and they said the same thing when i was talking to his parents and they were especially sad i was leaving.
So anyways not to carry on but...... I miss him, i wish if i could that i would of made a move and realized sooner how i felt for him and let him know. And i have a feeling, from what hes said to me and acted like, that he thinks the same thing. But i dont want to get hurt or start a long distance relsad goodbye letting go quotesationship. But anyways, what should i do, and also any songs or quotes to help would be greatly appreciated! thanks!:)
People who were best friends first have a better relationship because they already know each other
Haha awww well I had someee similiar situation...(still am) I'm with this girl in long distance and before we went out we were friends for 2 years and had secret crushes for each other but we were scared 2 tell because of rejections and embarrassments and akwardness...but then her best friend somehow hooked both of us up...1 yr and 5 months now on long distance...so muchhh stuff happened that we fell in love..now u say wats da point of telling him how I feel if u might not see him again? Well I never met my gf in person and we planning to move to this house when I turn 18 (I'm 17 now) and marry...dis boy might be ur future u never kno..it's VERY hard on a long distance relationship but it's all worth it if y'all go to the end together..u should tell him how u feel and talk to him on the fone and if y'all go out and fall in mote love y'all should plan y'all future or plan to meet for a special holiday =]
Tell him how you feeeeel ! or you will really regreat it!!
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